This Halloween, I turned pretty. Because usually I’m not. And I don’t care. 🤣Jokes aside, I know the extent of my beauty and I can be attractive. I also know I can go beyond to enhance it. I just prefer to be comfortable all the time rather than to have to slap on thick makeup all the time or to go for plastic surgery.
If other women like to go paint their face like 10 layers of ICI or Dulux paint or go cut here, cut there to put implants, that’s their choice; not mine. Natural is better. What if one day there were to be a catastrophe and you go missing, and the only pictures of you were with 3 inches thick makeup on your face, the search party wouldn’t be able to find you. Then during any catastrophe for example flood, will you still have time to put on makeup while you’re trying to save yourself? Like tell the sky “Wait hah don’t rain so heavily yet, I go put on makeup first.” The flood will wash off your makeup, leaving your mascara running down your face and your fake eyelashes floating in the rain water. That time you really look like a pontianak (female vampire in Malay folklores), no need to makeup for Halloween already. *Disclaimer : not advertising ICI or Dulux.
I’m glad I’m able to reach this stage to look good again by healing myself considering I’ve been having chronic illness. From looking like 100 years old with my dry, wrinkly skin to look better and be able to reverse aging. When doctors be it Western or traditional Chinese medical doctors and none of their medicine could work, I think I’ve done very well and I’m proud of myself.
I can put on weight already. When I was ill the past few years, I couldn’t gain weight even though I eat a lot and my pants kept dropping. I’ve always been slightly underweight for my height all the while I was in my teens until 30s but I notice when I’m ill and stressed, I’ll lose weight even more. There was only one period when I become flabby and gained weight, when I was staying overseas and it was always cold, so I didn’t get much sweat and exercise plus I wasn’t living a happy, healthy lifestyle. Never will I ever want to live that life ever again, this is a vow I make to myself. I would not make the same choices as I made that time if I ever were to go back in time. Back in Malaysia now, where it’s always warm and sunny, there’s no problem with busting up a sweat with almost no movement at all. I make sure I exercise on a constant basis.
My tummy now is now 1 pack and no more 4 packs. 😅 At one point when I was very fit and trained, it was 6 packs. It’s a pretty good feeling, where you lie down flat on your back on the bed and automatically there’s like suction from the inside sucking your stomach in to the back of your body. You end up with a stomach curvature instead of just a flat stomach. I used to be shy to let anyone know about my 4 packs abs. It’s nothing to be ashamed about and in fact, it should be something I should be proud to show off. There was one incident, where I used to exercise with my boyfriend and once he wanted to tell his friends that I have 4 packs but I stopped him halfway. I guess I was just shy or didn’t want to come out as a show off when I was younger. Now I’ve come out of my shell and I’m not afraid to show my abs or currently my 1 pack. 😆 No big deal, if you wear cropped tops, can see and you wear certain exercise or dancing clothes also can see already. This is the reason why I’m sometimes not good at selling myself to my potential customers and employers. I always think be humble and don’t want to come off as bragging but the problem is, if I keep doing this, no one will know my skills and experiences, then I don’t get the pay and benefits I deserve. From my experience, there are some horrible people who will bully, thinking I don’t know anything. I’m capable, I’m talented, I’m creative, I’m multi skilled and I deserve better. I believe in myself.
My 4 packs is always ingrained inside my body, it’s like muscle memory where the 4 packs were formed since my early teenage years and it’s always there. Those with 8 packs, very nice to see. The body and abs, ya. Not to see the person lah, who knows what kind of face that person have. People are used to hearing 6 packs abs, not so much of 8 packs. The other 2 are formed below the 6, at the lower pelvic area.
Talking about this, have you seen those skinny scrawny guys who have 6 packs abs, gosh damn geli like they forgot to consume protein. It’s just not appealing. It’s because they are skinny, that’s why it’s easier to form the 6 packs but they are almost like skeleton bowing over and can’t even stand straight. Then there are those with muscular arms but they look stunted, lagi geli. It’s like someone put puffy sleeves on some short kid who’s learning how to swim. Then the guy who gained his 6 packs abs but forgot to train his leg muscles, so he looks like he has chicken legs. Recently I saw in a Facebook post about a guy who has a super fit body, 6 packs and all but didn’t train his arms so looked like he has broken arms. 🤣 So you see, it’s not everyone’s with 6 packs that’s nice to look at. Then there are those with no abs and loads of fats. That one I don’t know what to say already. Later you say body shaming but I ask you, what’s your excuse of not taking care of your body ?
Even if I become a bit fleshy at the tummy area, all I need to do is to exercise to trim the fats and unwanted flesh, then my 4 packs will show again and I don’t need to train to form it again. It’s very easy for me. When I was in my late teenage years where I have been getting plenty of exercise the past few years in school but haven’t exercise for a few months, and I need to dress up and put on a tight dress for some special function, I just do sit ups and it takes just 3 consecutive days to get my washing board abs. Come early 20s and in that same scenario, it took me 1 week. Then mid-20s, it took me 1 month or so. The older I get, the longer it takes. Now I don’t know anymore because of a few reasons : firstly I’m not suited for strenuous and long period of exercise; secondly I didn’t wear so many tight dresses due to my skin condition, and thirdly, pandemic lockdown so no functions to dress up for. All I know is some time during the past 3-5 years, even when I was ill, I still exercised and I was thin, the 4 packs was showing. Besides, I just maintain my habit of constant exercises.
Anyway, this Halloween I’m transforming myself into a pretty woman. Wearing bespoke in my own design. Note that I mentioned my own design, but might not necessarily be 100% tailored by me. Who says Halloween must always dress up like some ugly, scary ghost. There are some cool parties where the theme is extravagant costume party and their costumes can be posh with expensive headgears. Think of the headgears worn by those rich investors in the Squid Game, they just didn’t put on costumes. Somehow reminds me of something I’ve seen before in an article about a Rothschild party. Hmm, coincidence not? Just make sure if you’re invited to a costume party, then be prepared in a costume and don’t turn up with none. Boring and not sporting only these kind of people, you might as well don’t go in the first place. Talking about headgears, do visit Myle Enterprise’s online shop as they have some handmade hairbands.
Here’s a video of me : https://youtube.com/shorts/n7MpL-jk-RM
Happy Halloween. No tricks don’t you dare, treats only for me.